Fill A Need (F.A.N)

“In this world there are *Fillers and *Needers …it is NOT a question of ‘which are you?’ It IS the notion of ‘When will you?'”

I was on my instagram the other night, just business as usual,
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Mental Stimulation

“Stimulate the MIND & the BODY will follow”

I’m a sucker for Ambiance, Romance, & Surprises. But nothing gets me wetter than our deep conversation.
*Allow me to set the mood*
Step inside our humble abode
Sweet smells of myrrh incense and cherry candles invade your nostrils
Inhale deeply as you relax in this candle lit home, forget about your troubles don’t allow your mind to roam. The focus now is ME
Take off your your jacket get comfortable let me lead you into our sacred space
Those soulful, sultry eyes meet mine and tenderly examine my face, softly touching my hair as they dance around my breast down to my thighs and legs admiring my lingerie made of lace.

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Allow me to slowly undress you,
As you enjoy these soft melodies
Let my massage un stress you
I know you can appreciate the time I took to marinate in my fruit infused milk bath,

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breath smooth like fresh mangos, skin soft like these satin sheets.
I can tell you’re already ready to get it on, but you know what arouses me.
As we Lay
My new position, next to you head on my chest legs intertwined

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Our heart beats begin to sync
You take your hand and start playing with mine
Conversation begins
Various topics….our minds and hearts entertained
Those electro magnetic energies are activated in our brains
Those chakras are almost in alignment
And the way you patiently timed it
We’re on to the next assignment
As kisses are exchanged

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I love to lick around your teeth, and suck on ya bottom lip. You return the motion and ignite fires. Patience is a virtue that gets you all of your desires. That mental stimulation.
Now I’m ready
To take you on a journey
You’re always yearning for more
Cause even though you were ready at the door, you awakened your sapiosexual side

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now you know what’s in store
High off each other
That conscious high is the best drug
Spiritual concentration leads to sexual elevations
Our connection
A direct reflection of unconditional love
Mental Stimulation
Take me there….
And we can go anywhere…

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62 More days!

“During the whole two years and change…. it seemed to fly by. But now that he’s so close to coming home, why does time seem to be crawling?”

I am in love with my husband. He is my best friend. And my heart hurts soo much in his absence. I absolutely believe our love is one of those rare, old fashioned, fairy tale love storiesĀ  you hear from those grandparents who have been together for over 50 years, happily. I literally count down, daily. I miss my Big Daddy soo much. The bass of his voice tickling my ear drum, the warmth of his touch. The way he spun me around like a ballerina! Ha! I used to be embarrassed when he did it in public but now i miss it! His attentiveness, he gives me so much attention. His hearty laugh, so contagious. Laying on that small patch of hair on his chest that tickles the side of my face. I remember the first time I persistently attempted to shave it off and he resisted but then reluctantly allowed me to! And now he prefers it gone! 62 more days until I see my kings face and what a glorious day it will be! Got used to taking care of everything, can’t wait for him to take back the reigns and be the head of the family. There’s going to be a lot to do, things to get back in order, but we’re both ready. I know it will Feel like a lifted burden because for so long my hearts been so heavy. I know he’s my soul mate…. If I had a rough day, mentally I’d say “I wish I could talk to my Baby” and then when he’d call the first thing he’d say is “what happened today? What’s wrong baby?” But usually he’ll say “hey baby, I love you. How was your day? What were you doing?” I told him, you must be telepathic because anytime you ask what’s wrong? It’s because I had a rough day. But on the good days you don’t ask what’s wrong! How do you know when something is wrong?! He always says ” because I’m in tune with you baby” its crazy! 62 more days… it will be a celebration! We still have to honey moon, we need a vacation! Can’t wait to do romantic things and make passionate love. Can’t wait to go to church together and I thank the Lord above always for putting us in each others path. He’s such a blessing! He’s always talking about how my photographs have him stressing! He said “you be looking too good out there” image image image image image image He wants to touch me always says he doesn’t wanna lose me. I always re assure him trust me… I’m here to stay. Our favorite motto is :

Foreva And A Day”

And I mean that. I wish I could just fast forward to May… although it seems like forever it’s only 62 more days. Eva Fresh. Eva Ready. Eva Stush!

You Never Gave Up

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IF SHE’S WORTH IT, YOU WON’T GIVE UP
IF YOU GIVE UP, YOU’RE NOT WORTHY”

You never gave up on me baby
Never gave up on US.
we’ve been through some drama, and circumstances and my personality’s a little tough.
Every day was not so romantic.
But who’s everyday is romantic?
You did try to keep me happy daily.
Always loved your surprises
And your acts of chivalry.
But the hustle started taking over predominantly
Married to the streets & the mistress (ya money)
During high times I accept the fact I wasn’t always as grateful.
During our lows some of my verbal expressions were distasteful.
Soooo many other times I thought I was in love. Didn’t know how to truly accept you.
Used to look me in the eye when I thought you were full of s*** and say things like
” I would never degrade or disrespect you “
“I’m your protector and provider, you’re the one for me. I love you so much I just wanna take care of you and the kids”.
And you did
Your actions spoke louder than your words
But at what cost?
More money, more grind, less time
I’m working
You’re hustling
The things that went through my mind
Times I got soo frustrated
And told you I have had enough
Ready to throw in the towel
But you never gave up on us
At one point I thought you was crazy
Some of my friends did too!
Used to call my family to tell them to talk to me when I said I was through with you.
My mother has told me several times
” honey that man really loves you “
Other than the love from Christ I thought mans love was conditional
But you never gave up
All my life I’ve seen brokenness
A product of divorced parents and everyone’s marriage was a mess
All the men in my family, my exes & friends exes and even on TV…. they didn’t seem to have any loyalty so I added you to that category thinking eventually you’d do the same.
Cause you’re a man and “that’s what men do”
Sew wild oats, lie, cheat, play a bunch of games,
And you were honest and told me years ago you were that way.
Which caused me to put up my defenses
Cause I’ll be damned if I let another man think I’m gonna let love numb my senses
I will not be rendered defenseless
But you showed me,
Consistency
Respect and loyalty
My heart started to heal from all the previous scars, cause daily it was treated like royalty
A small hiccup or two
But that’s to be expected
Even when my own family had me feeling rejected
You said you’d never let me go
You changed my whole LOVE perspective  Because yours was TRUE
so through your incarceration
I don’t care who thinks what
You never gave up on US
And I will never give up on you….
💋💋💋

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(Dated: May 2011
Official: June 2011
Booked: May 2013
Married: May 2 2014
Release date: May 12th 2015
Can’t wait to see you Big Daddy)

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B.L.A.C.K

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B.L.A.C.K ( but we are Brown)
Blessed. Loving. Attributed. Creative. Kings and Queens
Beautiful. Longing. Artistic. Charismatic. Kemetic
Brown skinned gods and goddesses Ancestral Crafters
Labeled with the color of darkness
B.L.A.C.K (but we are brown)
constantly blamed for disasters
Hated and feared
Have a inherit career of mistreatment and being misled
But like iron in fire
Thorough bred molded
Publicly ridiculed murdered and scolded
Labeled with the color of darkness
B.L.A.C.K (but we are Brown)
yet filled with a blinding light
Not easily smoldered
Some of our brown siblings are ashamed of their own sight
Different arrays of brown
But take delight in your melanin
Different shades varied hues
Some have to pay for this complexion… Never be ashamed of your reflection brown family
Yet labeled B.L.A.C.K
the color of tar… Made out to seem negative by far
Everything From being
B.L.A.C.K. listed B.L.A.C.K. mailed
B.L.A.C.K balled. If its Black it must be unclean.
Yet without B.L.A.C.K skies the Stars would go unseen
B.L.A.C.K
dark and strong Like coffee beans and precious like onyx and oil
Rare Diamonds and rubies
B.L.A.C.K like little dresses and articles of clothing that can be worn with any and everything
Through wear and tear we’re everywhere
Intimidating is our skin?
B.L.A.C.K but we are Brown
The eyes are the Windows to the soul. Although some of our spirits are dim….Its hard to look straight into the souls whose inner Royalty exudes from within

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Lay With Me

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Baby it’s been a while
And Through these trials
It’s plain to see
We got each others backs
And God has guided us safely
Through the valleys …
out of darkness
I know you’ve been through some things
And nothing can express the joy that seeing your face brings. ..
Baby I miss your everything
There’s also been a change in me. ..
Peace in my mind
Peace in my soul
Come And lay with me.

Tried and true
So loyal to my king
We have some catching up to do
Some making up and things
I have so much love to give
You make my heart sing
I love to lay upon your chest
And listen to your heart beat
We gaze upon our wedding rings
This Love is soo so sweet.

Peace in your heart
Peace in your mind
Our love was put to the test
The search is over
We hit the jackpot
As we lay
We enter mutual rest

Charlene P. Ward
Art for Sale @EvaStushBoutiq

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Love & Incarceration

We’re literally in this together!

When you have a significant other who is “locked up” it is not just a trial for them….. It’s also a trial for you.

It has been about two years and counting since my husband has been absent from home, and it hasn’t been a cake walk!
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