You Never Gave Up

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IF SHE’S WORTH IT, YOU WON’T GIVE UP
IF YOU GIVE UP, YOU’RE NOT WORTHY”

You never gave up on me baby
Never gave up on US.
we’ve been through some drama, and circumstances and my personality’s a little tough.
Every day was not so romantic.
But who’s everyday is romantic?
You did try to keep me happy daily.
Always loved your surprises
And your acts of chivalry.
But the hustle started taking over predominantly
Married to the streets & the mistress (ya money)
During high times I accept the fact I wasn’t always as grateful.
During our lows some of my verbal expressions were distasteful.
Soooo many other times I thought I was in love. Didn’t know how to truly accept you.
Used to look me in the eye when I thought you were full of s*** and say things like
” I would never degrade or disrespect you “
“I’m your protector and provider, you’re the one for me. I love you so much I just wanna take care of you and the kids”.
And you did
Your actions spoke louder than your words
But at what cost?
More money, more grind, less time
I’m working
You’re hustling
The things that went through my mind
Times I got soo frustrated
And told you I have had enough
Ready to throw in the towel
But you never gave up on us
At one point I thought you was crazy
Some of my friends did too!
Used to call my family to tell them to talk to me when I said I was through with you.
My mother has told me several times
” honey that man really loves you “
Other than the love from Christ I thought mans love was conditional
But you never gave up
All my life I’ve seen brokenness
A product of divorced parents and everyone’s marriage was a mess
All the men in my family, my exes & friends exes and even on TV…. they didn’t seem to have any loyalty so I added you to that category thinking eventually you’d do the same.
Cause you’re a man and “that’s what men do”
Sew wild oats, lie, cheat, play a bunch of games,
And you were honest and told me years ago you were that way.
Which caused me to put up my defenses
Cause I’ll be damned if I let another man think I’m gonna let love numb my senses
I will not be rendered defenseless
But you showed me,
Consistency
Respect and loyalty
My heart started to heal from all the previous scars, cause daily it was treated like royalty
A small hiccup or two
But that’s to be expected
Even when my own family had me feeling rejected
You said you’d never let me go
You changed my whole LOVE perspective  Because yours was TRUE
so through your incarceration
I don’t care who thinks what
You never gave up on US
And I will never give up on you….
💋💋💋

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(Dated: May 2011
Official: June 2011
Booked: May 2013
Married: May 2 2014
Release date: May 12th 2015
Can’t wait to see you Big Daddy)

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The Coldest Winter Ever!

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“One thing about Storms….. they may wreak havoc…but they come & they go”

Many of us are good with keeping up appearances. In a day and age of perfection, beauty, status, social media, advanced technology etc. The ability to fake the funk is easier than ever. Everything can be photo shopped, leased, nipped & tucked! Forget keeping up with the Jones’ everybody trying to keep up with the Kardashians! Ha!
Aaahhh…. the Luxury life.. Those who have it flaunt it, those who don’t, want it.
When are we going to get real? Really keep it 100. And respect when people do keep it 100.
No matter what is going on in your life just know you’re not alone. It is OK to fall off your high horse sometimes…..just saddle back up!
Its OK to be REAL and have flaws. Singers like Beyonce’ make songs about ” I woke up like this #flawless” is unrealistic. Yeah it sounds good but we all have flaws. Some of us just pay lots of money to correct the physical ones! But flaws are what makes each and every one of us unique.
It saddens me when some people experience a life altering event and they get so down on themselves and depressed, some even committing suicide because life is not going in their favor at the moment. That saddens me and is unfortunate because life is like weather. You have good days….. The sun is shining, it’s feeling good and you’re doing great feeling wonderful and those days may last a while. But just like you have those good days here comes the rain, the storm clouds, snow, hail, tornados, floods & earthquakes and those days may last a little while. No one likes to be in the midst of the storm, it’s unpleasant but as long as you can endure it, it will pass!
It’s always darkest before the dawn. But hang in there! This may be your coldest winter ever but stay hopeful and persevere because you will be ever grateful for your warmest summer ever!

There’s nothing wrong with expressing yourself and being real. We sometimes tend to share the great news with family, friends & social media and when things are sour we may keep a facade of being ok  when in actuality we may be going through something. Not everything is for social media. Some things may need privacy or professional help, but just keep going! Do not give up! Storms don’t last forever.

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